Loss

Is such a hard thing. It's such a broad topic as well. But I'm not going to talk about death or friendship or religion or hope. Loss of those things is too much to discuss. I'm going to talk about loss of the things you love- a favorite activity, a favorite place.

So, in life, there are obstacles that hold us back- be it physical or mental. But no matter what the obstacle is, it's not just the problem of the obstacle that is so terrible, but the loss of what you do.

Imagine being on the outside. Watching the one activity that you love- but not being able to participate. Watching, wishing, hoping, you're separated from that source of love, joy, pride, and happiness. You're separated from this- almost as if by a pane of glass. You can look, see, walk around, walk through, but never be part of it. Never feel that excitement, exasperation, exhaustion. You're merely a ghost- gliding through the world you once loved.

You can do as much as you can- maybe stay on the side. But it's like finding sustenance, but never being completely satisfied.

The bottom line is that it sucks- for lack of a better word.

I wish I could give a happy end, maybe how to get through it. But the only thing I can find to say is a very true quote from one man that I respect. "Keep your chin up, soldier."

It'll all be okay in the end. No matter the obstacle. It'll pass.
God puts these obstacles in our way to help us learn how to get through.
And the whole point of this to to grow.
So grow. Go and grow.
It'll be okay.
So maybe after all I have a happy ending for this. Being on the outside isn't all that bad. Because on the outside, you can find all the other things. And you can look in, feel pride for what you love. Because if you truly love it, it's not loss at all, it's just... change. Change you can feel, but change that is good.



P.S. check out the band Mumford and Sons. They have a couple of good songs like Awake My Soul or Winter Winds. They're very good.


(They've been on Letterman).



Love,
Riley